Chelsea Handler writes about grieving her brother in new memoir

Chelsea Handler has a new book out and she’s more candid than ever.

In “Life Will Be the Death of Me: … and You, Too!” Handler writes about dating, her therapy sessions and discusses the death of her brother, Chet, who fell and died during a hiking trip in 1984.

“[Chet was] kind of my protector, kind of a father figure, a big brother, a crush, your first boyfriend,” Handler told USA Today.

She said she felt “broken” after losing her brother and tried to hide her feelings.

“I dealt with it by just, if anybody talked about Chet or mentioned him, I’d just leave the room,” Handler is quoted. I’d get on my bike, and I’d ride my bike for hours around the neighborhood. I could cry on my bike, but I wouldn’t let anyone see me cry in person.”

Handler paid tribute to her late brother in an Instagram post in 2017.

“33 years ago this month my brother Chet died. He was 22, and the oldest of 6 kids. We were never 6 again. Only 5. The number was never the right number again,” Chandler wrote. “But, because of that day, I learned how to live and love and laugh and to: Show up, Stand up, Love up, Argue, Fight, Make up, Show up again. Go to bat for people. Tell them you love them. Defend your friends. Stand up for yourself. Give away the things you have in excess. Give away the things you love the most. This is the only chance we get. Make it count. Live a little.”

Handler’s memoir released Tuesday.